Wednesday, August 27, 2003

Man, I must be the easiest person to buy gifts for.

This blog may have something to do with that. But mostly everyone just knows I love comics, and so pretty much everyone gave me comics. Not that I'm complaining. :)

Chris gave me Last Chapter and Worse, a Far Side book. Incidentally, I had given this as a gift myself back in high school.



Just tonight, Ate Cyn and Arnold gave me Graphic Classics: Jack London. Which is great, because I'm not familiar with London's work, so it'll be something new for me.



Don't the cover look spiffy? It should. Arnold drew it.

Also just tonight, Quark and Lia gave me Promethea Book 2, and a VHS tape of Amateur, one of my favorite films which I haven't seen in years and is still criminally not on DVD.



However, Neva went completely overboard. She'd gotten me Dave McKean's Cages about a month ago, but still surprised me on the birthday itself with Chris Ware's Quimby the Mouse. Whattagal.



And I treated myself to The Comics Journal Library Vol. 2: Frank Miller, which I'm reading now. :)



Though the cover is actually red, this is the only image I could find online.

Had a GREAT evening tonight with the couples. We had dinner at Cafea, just playing catch up. I looked at Arnold's designs for the new Captain Barbell and got some news about that project. We also ran into Carlo. After that we caught Spy Kids 3D, which is my first full-length 3D movie experience. They fucking charged us 10 bucks for each pair of 3D glasses, and the red lens wasn't too good on mine. The experience was sort of a letdown for me. We never once, you know, moved our heads to evade something or anything like that. In fact, I wonder if I'd enjoy it more without the 3D effect. But still, it was fun having to put it on and off at certain parts of the film. The film itself was nothing special, but nothing horrible, either. It's more of a kids' flick than the first. I didn't see the second so can't compare, though now I want to see it. Antonio Banderas seems to be funniest in Robert Rodriguez films. While the graphics are great, the movement is clunky and awkward. Stallone can't act for shit, though I liked his hippie, and really enjoyed George Clooney's impression of him. If you do decide to watch it, wait til after the credits for a cute surprise. As usual, Rodriguez did damn near everything on this film: writer, director, editor, producer, visual effects supervisor, composer, songwriter, and re-recording something. The guy's a one-man studio.

After that we used our free games at Timezone, where we all took turns playing air hockey. Lia displayed her skills, trouncing Quark twice, and I got to murder dozens of virtual enemies with some shoot-em-ups.

And Mars is out right now! Wooh!

Tuesday, August 26, 2003



Dogville is fantastic. There are people who've called it anti-cinema, but I don't agree. I think that there are some rules that cinema should adhere to, otherwise a work could become a different medium, but most of the time, I'm entertained and delighted that people like Lars Von Trier are still pushing up against the boundaries of what people would imagine and categorize as a film.

To explain, the entirety of Dogville takes place in a warehouse, with no real sets, just a couple of props and labels on the ground that say "Elm St." or "Chuck & Vera" or "Gooseberry Bushes" or "Dog." The actors walk around pretending to walk in and out of doors, etc. I guess the idea is in the absence of props and sets, you really concentrate solely on the characters: their emotions, expressions, reactions. That's the main conceit. The story isn't much of a departure as far as the more popular Von Trier films go (which is mostly a woman suffering every indignity until the breaking point, i.e. madness or death). However, there's a great twist at the end that makes it worthwhile, and almost vindicates the suffering he put his previous characters through.

There are things he does with the experiment that are possible only because it's film, which validates the experiment in my mind. Most importantly, point of view and editing. He can compose shots we won't see if it were theater (top shots, for example), juxtaposing, framing, using negative space, etc. He can go back and forth between separate conversations much smoother, or use jump-cuts.

Even though this is the first part of his USA trilogy, the story would probably fit in with his previous Golden Heart trilogy, as Von Trier himself has admitted. But it's probably that twist at the end that really differentiates it.

Anyway, it's good, it's worth it, watch it, enjoy it. Leaving the theater, you could really feel that everyone was talking about it, and it felt great. Kudos to Cinemanila for getting me in a real film mood again. Even when I'm home I'm watching more. And am just excited for the possibilities, and am glad to be reminded that possibilities exist, and can be exploited with grace and aplomb.

Check out the website of Dogville, too. It's quite good. The trailer, for example, shows nothing from the film, but excerpts from a behind-the-scenes documentary called Dogville Confessions (which I now really want to see), where cast and crew could vent their frustrations or anything else in "confession booths" that were on set during production.

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Another film I'm looking forward to.





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Ate Cyn redesigned the website of her fiancee. It's not just a great redesign, there's some new material I haven't seen before, too (her fiancee is Arnold Arre, by the way). The watercolor works, in particular, are amazing.

Also check out her website for Sandwich, which is terrific. Nice to see they've got wallpapers. And banners, if you want 'em.

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Holy fucking shit, I’m 23.

23 sounds scary as a number denoting age. It’s not old, but it sounds frighteningly adult. I was just getting comfortable with 22. And this year’s birthday, it really snuck up on me. It was earlier tonight, having dinner with Neva, that I realized, “Oh shit. I forgot it’s my birthday tomorrow.” I honestly was distracted by other things: some stuff I’m reading, Cinemanila, projects…

I re-read my post from the last birthday and noticed some things: both Cinemanila and the Bookfair were on the periphery, and Gamitan had just come out. This year, Keka’s out.

There’s no way that Neva could throw another surprise party after two in a row, so I expect it to be quiet today. Especially since I plan to watch Dogville.

I was born on a Sunday, too.

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Haven’t updated in a while. The Keka premiere was last Monday, and it was a blast. It’s incredibly satisfying seeing the film on the big screen, especially since I’d already seen it a few times during editing and dubbing. JA’s work is stunning, and even the days that Ody and Lyle shot meshed well, I thought. Despite Quark’s horror stories with the MTRCB, I thought it came out great. I laughed at the right moments, and Katya’s so much better than anyone expected or gave her credit for. Lia’s opening credit sequence was genuinely moving; I keep forgetting to tell her this, but what I love most about it is that it goes back and forth between certain shots/scenes. A typical, lazy version would just go shot, shot, shot with no returns… but hers considers movement, and best of all, returns back to previous shots, sometimes with different permutations, like going through a photo album where the pictures are jumbled out of order. Which is how memory works. Probably the best compliment I can give her in that regard is that it really makes you believe in them as a couple. The funniest scene for me is the morgue. Rey Solo’s performance was a hoot. The funnest scene has to be the musical number. Especially when the frat boys leap from behind their posts. The score is amazing. I told the Diegos at the after-party that I particularly loved the music in the scene in the graveyard near the end, and Diego said that it was really just Keka’s theme, but acoustic. See, I’m a fucking moron when it comes to simple shit like this. It should be easy but it flies over my head. But it can still move me.

Maybe the best thing I can say to Quark about Keka is that even with all my expectations (and I never doubted he could make a great film to begin with), it still exceeded them. So I’m really happy for him, and am proud to say I know the guy. There’s an excruciatingly few number of people who have to deal with his particular dilemma: having achieved my dream project at the tender age of 22… what next?

If you haven’t seen Keka yet, do so. Soon. And if you like it, tell everyone you know to go see it. Even if you didn’t like it, tell everyone to see it so you can compare notes and see if they agree with you.

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My other highlight of the year is meeting Fernando Mereilles, the director of City of God. It was a complete accident. Alexis and I were sitting at Popeye’s when I saw Tikoy Aguiluz, Festival Director of Cinemanila, walk by real fast in a hurry with a Caucasian guy. Just on the off-chance, I ask Alexis, “Is that Mereilles?” and he looks and says, “Yes!” so we get up and run after them. Surprising myself, I wasn’t a flustered buffoon. I shook his hand and simply said Thanks for making a great film, speaking as a film buff. And that I was glad to hear that a 2 ½ hour serious film was such a hit in his native country, especially among the youth. He was gracious and said thanks, and I got a picture taken with him, while Alexis distracted Tikoy. So that was a real treat. How many times do you get to meet someone who did something that inspired you? And tell them personally that you’re grateful?

Get this: the next day, he was watching a film with us. We saw him while in line for Lav Diaz’s Hubad sa Ilalim ng Buwan, and invited him to watch, and lo and behold, he did. He had to leave early, though, to introduce City of God in the other theater, but still! :) That evening he won the Grand Jury Prize at the Awards Night. Gracious as ever, when he accepted the award he was talking about Brazilian films, which I found refreshing. Instead of taking the credit and letting it be about him, which everyone was prepared and perfectly willing to do (since he deserved it), he still wanted to act as an ambassador for Brazilian cinema. I was with JA as he got Mereilles’s autograph. I never got his autograph; I had wanted to interview him personally but he left two days early. Oh well. He’ll be back soon enough: part of his next film will be shot here.

Today I met Prabda Yoon, who is a nice, amiable chap. He's 30 but has published 10 books, and his recent script was directed by Pen-ek Ratanaruang, a film called Last Life in the Universe, which was shot by Christopher Doyle, one of my idols. Check out the trailer on the website, it's pretty interesting. Alexis interviewed him for Indiefilipino.com and I sat in.

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Everyone seems to be getting hit by the Blaster worm. I had to download the patch and removal tool for Neva. Know why I haven’t been hit? I’m still on Windows 98! Dear Lord, I’m too obsolete to even be bothered with…

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Cecile leaves today for Connecticut, so adieu and a safe trip to her. :)

Apologies to Clar. :)

Greetings also to Carlo, whose birthday was yesterday. :)

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Holy fucking shit. 23.

Where the hell did the time go?

Friday, August 15, 2003

Just a quick post to let you all know that the website for Keka is now up. A lot of the pictures used on the site are mine. :) Not that you’d know it from the site credits, though… (oho, bitter daw). And here is the Victorian Sex Cry Generator. Good fun for a few minutes. My favorite is “Please sir, I beg you! Ease back your attack so that I may compose myself to compass the admission of that stupendous head of your machine!”

If you haven’t seen Finding Nemo yet, you must. The PowerBooks sale is pretty good, too, if you can find something you like. Instead of the standard 20% discount, this year the standard discount went up to 30%. I recommend Samuel Delany’s Times Square Red, Times Square Blue (which is in the 50% off section), the graphic novels, and the usual suspects: Neal Stephenson, Philip K. Dick, Jeff Noon, Chuck Palahniuk, Haruki Murakami, Douglas Coupland, Michael Chabon, Truman Capote, etc.

Monday, August 11, 2003

Got a reply for my second Help Request from Blogger: they can't find a more recent copy of my template, so I went and did all the changes myself (again). I restored the links box to the best of my memory (even added a couple of people), but it may not be complete, so if you were linked before and aren't now, comment and I'll rectify the problem (please also tell me if there are any broken links, or if I'm using an old URL of yours).

Hope to watch some films at Cinemanila today.
Hurrah! MINDFUEL is one year old.

I honestly wasn't sure if it would make it this long. It seemed possible at all times that I'd just lose interest, or neglect it long enough that it wouldn't be worth reviving. But I'm glad it's still here. I'm glad I can look at old entries and see what I was doing, thinking, angry about, ensorcelled by. So I think that in some shape or form, I'll be keeping MINDFUEL for some time yet. Thanks to all faithful readers, commenters, linkers, and people who've signed my Guestbook.

No reply yet for the second help request from Blogger, so we'll see when I just lose patience and restore the template myself (painstakingly).

Finally got to drop by the set of First Time again yesterday. My first visit to my episode. Saw people speaking my dialogue (well, some of it; the script's changed a lot). "Actors" who I know will at least be getting PAID. Robert Quebral is the cinematographer of my episode, and it looks great. Saw some of the changes done to my script, and I figure only about 40% will remain. Reasons for the changes vary: weather wasn't always cooperative so schedule was a problem, so is the budget, and let's be generous by saying some of the "actors" have difficulty memorizing and delivering lines... even if they are sometimes one-liners (heard a horrible story about an actress who couldn't even knock on a door convincingly). Oh well. I've distanced myself from the story enough that it doesn't matter to me anymore (and I understand the necessity of the changes given the circumstances). And this way I will genuinely be surprised myself when I finally see the movie.

The guy playing the main male character was talking to me, and I don't think he knew I was the writer, because he kept telling me that "I'm not actually supposed to be in this film e, I'm supposed to be doing wholesome roles only."

Also dropped by Marie's shoot for her student video. Ody Flores (who did some work on Keka as well when regular DP JA Tadena couldn't make it) is shooting the project and his work looks amazing. Jaime Fabregas remembered me from when we acted together in Marc Abaya's short about two years ago. And I met Epi Quizon, who said he liked the script for Big Thing and his character, which also made me happy.

Unfortunately, developments on Big Thing are going south. There's a new director attached, who I'm not familiar with, and I guess he didn't like our script because he's having it revised by someone else. And I had to find this out myself, no one "officially" told me. So I guess Lyndon and I may be out of the loop now. I just want to get paid at this point.

Saturday, August 09, 2003

For a day or two MINDFUEL was dead. The template disappeared, as I mentioned, and when I published a new post, the entire blog disappeared as well. I fired off a help request and hoped for the best, dismayed by the notice that mentions they're concerned, but must prioritize paying members. Understandable. Got the reply today, and the blog's back up, but as anyone can see, it's an old version of my template, before the great links box reshuffling. So I fired off another help request. I hope they can help me out.

Keka's in dubbing! The editing's all but done. Then I guess sound mixing, and grading. And then that's it. Time to watch. I hope we can do some cool Keka articles for Indiefilipino.com.

Will finally get to visit First Time again in a few hours. :)

Finally got to see, and eat at, Kusineo. Thus I also finally got to see Meg since she got back, and was introduced to Nicole, who is a quivering kinetic dollop of cute. I think all restaurants should have their own Nicole. I also wish she'd update her blog more.

Tomorrow this blog turns one. How time flies...

Wednesday, August 06, 2003

For some reason Blogger has lost my template. Hmm... at this point I can't really say I'm surprised anymore.

Keka's last day was yesternight. Both fun and slightly emotional. I'm both glad and sad to know it's over. If that makes any sense. Maybe those involved will understand better.

Cinemanila begins today. There's a Wong Kar Wai retrospective as well as a lot of other great things to see: Swimming Pool, Uzak, The Man Without a Past, Public Toilet, Talk To Her, Dogville, City of God, Dolls, Infernal Affairs, 24 Hour Party People, etc. Also short films by Quark and Chris. Go and see.

Keka's now being dubbed and edited at the same time. Cool.

Chuck Palahniuk's Lullaby didn't really blow my mind. It's not as funny as his other books, and it's exactly in the same style. I guess I should resign myself to the fact that he won't change that style anymore. It's not a bad style, it's quite unique and can be very effective, but after five books of it you'd think he'd experiment a little bit, just for variety. Maybe he's scared of going too far from what he's known for...? Still, he packs a lot of great, quotable sentences and gives you small things to think about through the whole book, and you can probably finish it in a day. The ending kind of disappointed me, it was more of a character ending than a plot ending in the sense that the protagonists reach an impasse in their relationship and get over it, but still have a lot of things to do. So the story isn't really "done" when you finish the book.

Finding Nemo could be the best film of the year. Certainly in the Top 10 immediately. It's wonderful, and the best compliment I can give it is that it made me feel like a kid again. Spectacular, heart-warming, and funny. Great cinematography. The voice actors are all excellent choices, might I add.

Bad Boys 2. Ehh...

Monday, August 04, 2003

Okay. Right.

Keka has one last day of shooting left. Only one sequence to go. Then Quark has editing, dubbing, sound mixing, grading, and everything else that has to happen for him to submit the film on I think Aug. 10. Some of the editing's been done already, and he showed sequences to the crew yesterday and it looked lovely and amazing. I'm very excited about it now, and really happy for him. A subtitled print will not make it in time for Cinemanila, so it will be showing in the festival, but not in competition (the subtitled print was necessary for some of the judges who don't speak Tagalog); it'll be in exhibition. A premiere event is being worked out for Ateneo. General release is on Aug. 20; posters are already up everywhere.

The days in between Keka shoots are usually spent resting, or, like Saturday, using work as an excuse to finally meet up with Ate Cyn and Arnold about Big Thing and Arn's possible involvement with that, but generally catching up with them as I haven't seen them since last year (!). Today I had the choice of going to Keka editing and visiting the set of Gagamboy, but I opted to stay home and rest because I wasn't feeling too well this morning and don't want to put my health at risk and possibly miss the last day tomorrow. I feel better now, and hope to keep it stable for tomorrow.

Going to Keka's last day tomorrow also means, it seems, missing the first day of shooting of my episode for Lyle Sacris's First Time. I wanted to be there, but I chose Keka over it since I've been with the production almost the whole time (though I maybe missed 4 days).

The pitch last Monday for Big Thing went surprisingly better than I expected it to, but not without its share of trademark ridiculous moments. It looks like it's a go, but recent developments have seen me slowly detaching myself from it emotionally but still trying to help in certain aspects. Also, a couple more things to work on in the script, which means Lyndon and I will go to Draft 3...

PowerBooks' Annual Sale has begun. There's also a few books on sale at Fully Booked. I recommend Iain Sinclair's Downriver and Neil Jordan's Nightlines (also called Sunrise with Sea Monster), both at 50% off.

Two new Mirrormask pics can be seen here. Man, I'm getting much too excited about this film...

Am now reading a book I've been looking forward to for some time now, Chuck Palahniuk's Lullaby.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

You know what I really hate? When you drive home from a long day (and I'm talking 21 hours) and actually have to contend with morning FUCKING traffic because it's already 8 AM. I mean, all I want is to get home immediately and into my bed... I actually passed my mom on her way to work.

Writing this since it's now useless. Have an hour and a half to sleep, but had to do some stuff. Now thinking if I should still sleep or not.

It helps that I feel I am watching something great unfold.

In a few hours I leave the house again, and will probably not return until tomorrow morning. Again.

I should be sick tomorrow.

Good thing I have a lot of unwatched DVDs.

Saturday, July 26, 2003

Was going through another new set of revisions for First Time when I got the text that it was Not Radio's last episode, which Quark told me about but I didn't take him seriously. So I thought, okay, I'll give myself a break and listen-- and the farewell episode was 3 hours. Not that I'm complaining. It was sad, touching, hilarious as always, and punctuated by great music. I can't believe it's going, and it's still hard to believe that come October it would've celebrated its 11th year. Wow. I feel old. I've discovered a lot of great music thanks to the show. I remember buying Versus's Two Cents Plus Tax the day after Myrene played Atomic Kid. Which is one of the few times I ever bought an album (overpriced, at that, since this was during the CD Warehouse days) having only heard one song (but a kickass one, at that). The other times were Pearl Jam's Ten, and the Juliana Hatfield Three's Become What You Are. And Pavement's Wowee Zowee. Which have all gone on to become favorite albums of mine. Anyway, that's why I'm posting this at 3 AM.

LONG LIVE NOT RADIO.

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Whew. Haven't been this tired in a long time.

Keka's almost done, with about 3-4 days left of shooting. First Time has maybe a week to 9 days. Spent part of this week writing the second draft of Big Thing with Lyndon. Final pitch is on Monday, after which I think I'll be able to speak about it, though the project's already been announced to the public. Have some other potential things in the future that could be exciting, but I'd also like to rest before I jump into those.

Entering an online essay-writing contest.

Whew.

Friday, July 18, 2003

So the summer season is basically over. Who landed on top? X2. I enjoyed Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle, but for some reason it wasn't a blockbuster and is considered a disappointment at the box office. The Matrix Reloaded tried too hard, as did Hulk. Haven't seen Terminator 3 yet, but most everyone has been saying it's not bad. But no one seems to go over the line and actually say "It's good!" It feels like everyone expected a pile of shit without the involvement of James Cameron, and were surprised when the pile was smaller than they thought. But still, supposedly, shit. I liked 28 Days Later, but it didn't blow me away. LXG has been getting bad reviews everywhere, and you could pretty much tell from the trailers and the horrible way they've been promoting it that it was going to suck ass. Finding Nemo will at least save the day at the tail-end of the summer.

Oh well. At least Fall is coming up, so everyone's going to be bringing out their Big Meaningful Movies in competition for the Oscars. Which is both good and bad. You get genuine emotion in some of them, but others, of course, try too hard and deliver schmaltzy melodrama. Hmm… what am I really looking forward to? Kill Bill, which has now been split into two films. Return of the King. What else?

There's summer, which is devoted to Making Money. Then there's Fall, which is devoted to Winning Things. So I'm thinking, that dead spot in between winter and summer? Something exciting should be happening there. It would be nice if that were the period when exciting films emerged, with no hidden agendas other than to tell a great story, and deliver it in a kick-ass way. Genuine surprises should emerge from that period because it doesn't come with the expectation that comes from releasing in Summer or Fall/Winter.

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It depressed me to find Star Mandarin gone. It's the first channel I go to when I turn on the TV, and I had completely lost track of the date, so when I sat down to watch TV the other day, it was a sad reminder. There was just a screen saying Signal Gone. Now it's some Australian channel. Thinking of switching cable companies, but I don't want to go back to the evil Sky.

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Look at this beautiful picture:



Bigger version here.

That's a still from the upcoming film MirrorMask, written by Neil Gaiman and directed by Dave McKean. It's one of the films I'm most excited about. It was commissioned as a straight-to-video project and stars no one I know, but hopefully the impressive visuals convince the Jim Henson executives (who are producing) to give it a shot at a theatrical release. It would be wonderful to see moving McKean visuals on a giant movie screen. It began as a sort-of sequel to Labyrinth, but has become quite something else.

And here's another beauty:



James Jean is one of my favorite artists. His soft brush strokes, composition, and use of color are just inspiring. His figures are always interesting to look at, and everything looks so… cotton-candy. Yum.

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Yesterday was another great Keka shoot. It was at Quark's lola's house, where he used to live. I hadn't been there since the night of the Rage Against the Machine concert. Before that, maybe grade school. It's a fascinating house, the structure's almost maze-like. Must've been great when they were kids. His lola's so cool. She's very animated and lively. She does these magnificent jigsaw puzzles, the heavy-duty kind that go from 1000 to 15000 pieces. Some of them are framed, like the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel in the dining room that took 6 months. Some of the crew were admiring the one she was working on now. She has processes: start with the edges, work inwards. Group colors and shapes together. Proceed with caution. Neva and I spoke to her for about 15 minutes, asking stuff like was she interested in puzzles as a child (No, it only started in her old age as a hobby). Neva mentioned she'd always wanted to try one of these daunting puzzles, and Quark's lola went to a cupboard, opened it, and showed us boxes and boxes of completed jigsaw puzzles. She couldn't frame them all, she said, because they'd run out of wall space, but she didn't have the heart to break them after completing them so she just left them in the boxes. She told Neva to pick one and take it with her. She was even offering one to me but I declined and said I didn't have the time anyway. What a sweetheart.

It was Vhong Navarro's last day. He was a real stand-up guy, and his improvisation is incredible. He might have difficulty remembering his lines sometimes, but his attitude as an artista is solid. I hope he remains modest as his star continues to rise.

It was good for me because I had such a shitty Wednesday. A bit of family problems, coupled with weird body exhaustion, ending with slight paranoia. Horrible, horrible day.

Big Thing is being revised. We're going to submit a second draft soon, but not sure when. Some of the requested changes were, as expected, ridiculous, and will promptly be ignored. Some were already being worked on by us. Others, we can't avoid, so the nature of the project is turning into a bit of a beast and I can't say that my excitement about the project hasn't waned. It's a fucking damn shame, too, because for a while there everything was looking good. Even had a director who would know how to do it. These things continue to change all the time, so I don't think I'll be announcing much until sometime when they're editing, maybe. Recent political factors have come into play (where is the money coming from?, who wants to appear in the film?) that worry me. Hopefully we'll be able to figure out a way of salvaging what we've already worked on.

Friday, July 11, 2003

Dammit. Star Mandarin will disappear from Destiny on July 15. Fuck fuck fuck. That's probably the one channel I watch more than anything else when I actually find myself in front of the TV. Honestly, I seem to not have the patience for TV anymore. I used to be a TV addict; followed several shows religiously. Thought I wouldn't be able to live without it. Somewhere around college, though, I found that I wasn't watching any shows anymore. Felicity was in eternal reruns by then. The only thing I seemed to watch with any regularity was Conan, but that went too. Nowadays, when I actually find myself turning on the TV, and not to watch a DVD, I just browse through the music video channels, FTV, and Star Mandarin. It'll be a great loss for me: I discovered a lot of fun films through that channel. Some cool directors, a few great ones. What I love most is that it's fairly up-to-date. Some of the films on the channel were in Hong Kong theaters just a few months prior. And they also played Japanese movies (though dubbed in Mandarin; since I was reading subtitles anyway it didn't matter). Hell, I'll even miss the commercials terribly. Most of them are insane and funny, and, if you'll notice, Pinoy commercials have been aping them more and more recently. Woe! Woe is me!

I know I'm going to go through withdrawal. It's going to be difficult when a channel that keeps you up-to-date on the Hong Kong film landscape is suddenly taken away from you. It's like the world wants me to buy pirated DVDs.

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So, then: John Pham.

John Pham is a very impressive writer-artist. He puts out an independent comic book called Epoxy. Which is not, in itself, particularly unique (putting out an indie book, not Epoxy; Epoxy's pretty unique as I'll explain below), but why I chose to write about John Pham is: he knows how to deliver a package. I'd first read about Pham in an article at Popimage. It proved interesting, but I didn't exactly have a burning desire to go out immediately and get the book. However, it was at CCHQ the next time I was there, so I got it. The first issue was US$4 for 64 pages. Most comics these days are US$3 for 22 pages. Unfortunately I got busy and forgot I had the issue; it was in its plastic for about a month or two before I unearthed it beneath all the crap it got buried under. So I finally got to open it up, and lo and behold: beyond the attractive price/page ratio, the cover was a gatefold, it came with a free, cute bookmark, AND was signed and numbered by Pham! Now that's how you make a customer feel good. It helped immensely that the issue was kick-ass, too. It's got 3 stories that will run together for the rest of the series: one's a manga hybrid about a dragon chasing an android through future Tokyo about a debt, one's a girl's coming-of-age story, and the last's about a one-armed boxer. The range of stories within the issue itself is impressive, but Pham goes even further: he slightly alters his art style to fit each narrative. Sadly the next two issues weren't at CCHQ anymore. I went to his website and there are details there: the second issue is slightly shorter, but the 3rd is a HUGE issue, and goes for US$15 because of its size (not page count, it's literally around the size of a newspaper). He also has other products on his website: some zines, a handmade sketchbook or two. Check it out.

If you're thinking of changing your wallpaper anytime soon, consider this.

Tuesday, July 08, 2003




Hahahahahahaha


In what is sure to be the funniest story I'll hear all week (aside from Lyle's First Time stories), a Spanish-made Hulk doll won by a 6-year-old in the UK apparently comes with a penis that is 1/6th the entire height of the Hulk. Says the mother, "A hulk with a bulk like this just shouldn't be allowed."




"You wouldn't like me… when I'm horny."


Hmm… I wonder if they made a Betty Ross doll…

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Weird referrals recently have been searches for:

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pictures of couples fighting

and one for the Hall of Fame:

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I enjoyed 28 Days Later, though it was pretty much everything I expected. It didn't blow me away, but people had been telling me that it wasn't good, so I was glad that it wasn't bad after all. There were times, though, where I questioned the use of video. There are some standout scenes (the stairway chase, the tunnel, the finale) but there were also some scenes that I thought either went on too long or could have been improved. Still, I think that when I have some more free time I'll finally get around to reading Alex Garland's novels.

However, I loved About Schmidt. I thought that the subject matter might be too dull, but I shouldn't have worried. It's funny as hell, and I'd forgotten just how good a filmmaker Alexander Payne is. The editing, the shots, the score, the acting, I loved everything. It's one of those films that I'm sure everyone else but me will find slow-moving, but I don't care. If a film this good can be made from what I thought would be boring, then there's still so much to be done out there.

I also read Y: The Last Man - Unmanned over the weekend. Written by Brian K. Vaughan and drawn by Pia Guerra, it's a series with a great concept: what if, all of a sudden, every male in the world died (including animals)? It's not an original concept, mind you; Frank Herbert, as well as other science-fiction writers have tackled the concept of "Gendercide" before, and there's even an indie film in the US right now called The New Women that's about the same thing. However, the execution's the thing, and Y has got it down pat. I couldn't finish it fast enough. There's one last living man, though (hence the title), but the situations that Vaughan has come up with are all excellent: the reactions of government, religion, occupations, etc. The parties of Democratics and Republicans continue to vie for power. Because most of the higher-ups in government were male, the Secretary of Agriculture becomes President of the US. There's a radical extremist group of feminists calling themselves Amazons who undergo willful mastectomies just like the Amazons of old (it helped them use bows better). Women in the middle east are suddenly liberated and unsure what to do with such freedom. All very fascinating, this has the makings of one of the best series ever. Can't wait for the second volume.

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It's been a weird week for links. As I was watching 28 Days Later, there was a book in my lap also about a virus wiping out most of humanity (the aforementioned Y). Last week, Lyndon and I showed up at Quark's wearing the exact same pants on two separate days. A few hours after seeing Jay Ilagan's daughter, I saw a Jay Ilagan film on TV. A single word in last week's script, which I had written without any serious thought (it was just something that came up in dialogue), proved to be absolutely essential in the final climax of the third act.

I'm taking my cue from Alan Moore and avoid going to conclusions. I'm just going to take note of them when I do notice them, and maybe smile to myself, and observe my reactions to such things.

Friday, July 04, 2003

Sorry, but John Pham will have to wait.

I just wanted to say that I'm finally finished with Big Thing! Woohoo! Well, the first draft, anyway. Lyndon and I finished it at approximately 3 AM today. We were able to crank out a full-length feature film script in just about 3 days, all told. Which is not something I want to do again.

The first draft will undoubtedly go through a lot of fine-tuning, proofreading, and plot hole fixing. We've to inject a few more scenes and minor characters to make everything gel more cohesively, and to our complete satisfaction. Still, it's pretty much alll there. The skeleton and central nervous system are in place. So are the vital organs and various other important body parts. Skin's there. We still need to fine-tune some details like complexion and texture and facial features, but otherwise, fingers crossed, it should be okay from here on in.

We've been holed up at Quark's place for five straight days. We ate lots of great food and played with their great dogs when bored. My socks were accidentally taken once when the helper thought it was Quark's.

Nonetheless, it can be tiring as hell sitting in front of a computer for a week. I honestly considered calling in sick last Thursday just so we could have a day of rest, but decided against it. I did feel like it, though, because I wasn't just tired, I was sick of the subject matter of the script, and felt some time away from it, not thinking about it, would allow us to re-approach it with a fresh outlook. But we have this weekend to do that, now. I want to watch 28 Days Later. And read a book or two. Catch up on some DVDs if I have time, but I probably don't.

Viva feedback will be coming soon. Hope it's good news.

I've had some pretty cool experiences and "firsts."

Wrote my first bomb-defusing scene. First female-on-female fight scene.

Also, wrote a scene earlier tonight that just made me smile like an idiot. It was almost 6 pages long, a fight scene, mostly silent (around 4 sentences uttered, all short). But it's between two superpowered individuals. And speaking as a 14-year comics lover, it felt great to finish it and realize I'd written my first superhero battle. WOOH!

It's been great collaborating with Lyndon. Since we didn't know each other very well, we were genuinely surprising one another with the ideas we'd come up with, and we had a pretty congruent sense of humor throughout, and we'd riff on one another's scenes and come up with more scenes or shots or throwaway characters and it actually became a matter of what to keep out instead of what more we can add. We must've high-fived and laughed maniacally about 50 times this week.

I really hope this gets the right director because if it's someone who doesn't get the humor then it all goes to pot.

Tuesday, July 01, 2003

Hey, my health actually improved and I hadn't noticed! No more throat problems, cold is gone, and thus so are the headaches and nausea (for now). Big Thing proceeds apace. Lyndon and I submitted the treatment last night and are writing the script for the rest of the week, to be submitted on Friday if you can believe that. Then if there are revisions/major changes asked for by Viva (I hope not), we have one week to make the final draft. We've been writing at Quark's since Monday. He was nice enough to offer his home as a midway point for me and Lyndon, since he lives up North and I'm from down South. We were originally going to work in Ortigas, but the availability of a computer wasn't airtight so it was a good thing Quark came up with the offer. Whattaguy.

Saw Vittorio De Sica's Two Women. Great film. I love how De Sica moves his camera, it's so precise and subtle. Graceful, too. I wonder if he'd use handheld if he were still alive today and making films. There's a couple of great shots in a church when some Moroccan refugees come across Sophia Loren's character and her daughter. One really frightened me, made my blood turn to ice, and it's amazing because the movement in the shot is so slow, as opposed to the blink-and-you'll-miss-it kind of suspense shot. And of course, Jean-Paul Belmondo is always enjoyable to watch.

Slowly going through Top Shelf Asks the Big Questions, a terrific anthology that's exposing me to a lot of great artists I've never heard of. There's a section where cartoonists pay tribute to Peanuts, an excerpt from the sketchbook of Martin Tom Dieck, an interview with and portfolio of David Chelsea (who's amazing), and even an article on the Swiss comics scene, with some examples of their comics translated in English.

Once I find some more time, I'm going to add more links and re-structure the links box. Next post should be about the impressive John Pham.

Bulletproof Monk and Night at the Golden Eagle both suck. Too bad; I was hoping they'd be good.

Catch Dancer in the Dark at Greenbelt 1 Art Film this week. Bring tissue.

Friday, June 27, 2003

Sorry, but Hulk sucks. Stop now if you don’t want to bump into any spoilers.

I was very, very, VERY disappointed with the film. Two things to consider with any narrative art: style and story. Here, story’s not so bad. Not particularly good, either. But man, the style just sucked. Horribly. The transitions were SO annoying. I actually know someone who thinks that it’s the strength of the film, and I just look at him and want to clock him on the head. If you’re going to try to get us to invest in a serious story, then TREAT YOUR STORY SERIOUSLY. Don’t fuck around with editing techniques that constantly pull your audience out of the story and remind them every ten seconds that you’re watching a movie. And not just any movie, but a COMIC BOOK MOVIE. Ang Lee, what the fuck happened to you? I know you know how to tell a story. But this, I don’t know what this is... even if we forget the horrible transitions, the structure really needed a good going-over. They fight, run, time for some introspection, oops, time to fight again, now run, and then another spot of down time, and then another fight... didn’t we go through this with Matrix Reloaded? What was with that scene in the end where father and son meet bathed in bright white light and Daddy’s raving like a lunatic? Nick Nolte’s character was so one-dimensional, you can’t sympathize when he confesses to killing his wife. And when Ang inserts that shot of him kissing baby Bruce at the end it’s just a case of too little, too late, who the fuck gives a damn? The accident scene where Bruce gets the gamma radiation was so Undramatic. I mean, he gets solarized, for God’s sakes. If you’ve ever played with your camera or photoshop, solarization isn’t exactly an impressive effect. Then the constant cuts to molecular-level agitation. Hulk hiding in a closet like some boogeyman. The lake climax was a disaster for me. Daddy talks to Bruce underwater? Then he expands to some balloon above the lake that’s projecting 2D memories on its sides in a 1.83:1 aspect ratio? Man, it’s just thisclose above Daredevil. Oh, and who can forget the explosion that froze Josh Lucas into an outlined 2-dimensional figure? For a second I thought I was watching Austin Powers or something.

Ahh... most of my anger really comes from being disappointed. I mean, $120 million budget, Ang Lee directing, story by James Schamus... what happened? Is Danny Elfman the go-to guy for superhero film scores now? And did they really have to use the comic book font for the title credits?

Surprisingly, the best superhero film of the summer (so far, though I doubt LXG will unseat this) is fucking Charlie’s Angels: Full Throttle. It’s fun, enjoyable, with all the gratuituous cheesecake shots, decent jabs at comedy, clever use of pop music, and more effective action scenes than Reloaded (and that’s saying something). Of course, don’t bother looking for a story, just be glad Crispin Glover’s back. And they’ve got superpowers.

ADDED: Sorry, I forgot all about X2, still the best superhero film of the summer. It's just my brain was numbed to submission by the general disappointment of Reloaded and Hulk that it immediately attached itself to Charlie's Angels as manna from heaven.

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

Well, the results are in: health went first, with sanity a close second. I have a bad cold, the throat went nuts recently, swollen to the point that I had difficulty swallowing. Worst of all, I almost threw up on the set of Marilou Diaz-Abaya's Moral Ngayon last Monday. I had a bad headache and just general nausea from lack of sleep and oxygen, and being under hot lights (we were extras). Also had a near-brush with fever that I was thankfully able to shake off. Yesterday I met with Lyndon, and spent the whole afternoon jamming on the storyline to Big Thing. It was a lot of fun. I'm less scared of it now. We surprised ourselves with the scenes that we came up with, and at the very least I think that they're hilarious and fun. Chris laughed when I told him about them when he visited, so that's a good sign. Also wrote a second storyline that's more what I want to do with Big Thing, but it's a gamble. I don't know if Viva will like it. Either way, both storylines are with them now, as well as a character sheet, and they said they'd give us feedback as soon as tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

I can't believe the last film I saw was Sanib. Still have yet to see Hulk.

Saturday, June 21, 2003

I'm a little sick. My throat feels terrible and I have a cold, which is not good. I need rest but it's probably not forthcoming for a while. Progress on Keka proceeds apace, and production on First Time has begun. Have taken on another project that will probably break my back. It's a Big Thing, supposedly, but on a Very Tight Schedule. As in the storyline is due on Wednesday, and a full script in roughly two weeks. So we'll see what goes first: my health or my sanity. My readings document is already in the 250+ page range. It'll probably get worse before it gets any better. I actually don't have time to see Hulk. Today was Fete de la Musique (and Chris's birthday); I wish I was in better health to properly appreciate it. Finally got to see Cambio live, and hear more than one song, and they're great. The best of luck to 'em. Also got to see the Itchyworms! after a long time. Still great. Have to do research on Big Thing, which is almost impossible because of the Very Tight Schedule. Should be fun, but is equally scary. I'm rambling, aren't I? This is what happens when you don't sleep much, I guess. I haven't been this busy since junior year, probably. Only got to see 6 films at the French Film Festival this year. Usually I almost get to see everything. But what can I say? I can't think of a better reason to be so busy: I'm working, in however small the capacity, on movies. Only thing that could beat that right now is traveling to Northampton to meet Alan Moore.

Monday, June 16, 2003

It's amusing that for the past two weeks there have been no new pirated DVDs, not because our PNP or VRB or whoever it is whose job it is have been effective at raiding, rounding up, and putting a stop to them, but because Malaysia's been cracking down on its pirates, and that's where we apparently get all our swag from.

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I've been on a little Alan Moore trip lately. Which doesn't happen too often, because being a big fan (he IS my favorite writer, after all) I tend to get his works as soon as they come out, unless I'm particularly cash-strapped, or opt to wait for the inevitable collection. It just so happens, though, that this summer a number of his works are coming out: some new, but most are older works being re-published, or collected for the first time. For example, since Stardust I've slowly been working through Alan Moore: Portrait of an Extraordinary Gentleman, which is actually a tribute book. A large number of people in the comics industry contributed articles, anecdotes, reminiscences, artwork, short stories, etc. about the man and his works, all told adding up to 352 pages. All proceeds go to Alzheimer's charities, and the book is a gift to Moore on the occasion of his turning 50 (this November). The book also boasts a new interview, a rare short story he wrote for Dame Darcy to illustrate in her own book Meatcake, and a lengthy correspondence with Cerebus creator Dave Sim that originally appeared in the back pages of 4 issues of Cerebus, and largely concerned itself with From Hell, Moore's grandest opus thus far. A little frustrating is the fact that I own some of these rarities: the Cerebus issues and Meatcake short story I special-ordered from a friend of mine. Ah, well, I should be glad that more people get to read it now. The pieces that have touched me most in the book are the ones that don't discuss Moore's works, or his status as a magus, but just how he is as a human being.

Because the man seems to be a saint. I'm sure he's got his negative qualities, as do we all, but for a writer of his stature and popularity, it's surprising how down-to-earth he is, how amiable and kind and friendly and… well, just nice. Joel Meadows, a journalist, talks about how Moore was nice enough to pick him up at the train station, and fed him at his favorite Italian restaurant (where he apparently takes all press), and even escorted him back to the train station when it was time to leave. One cartoonist discusses how he met Moore, his idol, at a convention, and was floored when Moore recognized his name. It seems that Moore knew his name from the few fanzines that the cartoonist had work published in. Which you don't expect the most famous comic writer of this age to keep abreast of. Not only that, a few weeks later an editor called up the cartoonist for some work, and when he asked who recommended him, the editor informed him that it was Moore. So Moore actually gave him his start in professional comics, even though he hardly knew the man. My favorite story is probably John Higgins's, though. Higgins is probably best known for being the colorist of Watchmen and Batman: The Killing Joke. Higgins relates how, even though he knew he was "just" the colorist and wouldn't be recognized on the same level as Moore and Watchmen illustrator Dave Gibbons, they nonetheless treated him as an equal during meetings to discuss the book: they valued his input, listened to his suggestions, etc. A complete absence of ego and pretension. But he relates this personal story as well: what he will never forget, he says, is the image of Moore, at the height of his fame, attending a mid-80s San Diego Comic Convention, the biggest of its kind in North America. He was wearing a white pin-striped suit, was an imposing figure (being well over 6 feet tall), and was the star attraction of the Con, but was most concerned and preoccupied with keeping a 6-year-old girl from being bored. He was trying to regale her with stories and other things she might find in comic books. What made it personal for Higgins was that the 6-year-old was his daughter.

Another Suburban Romance also came out last week, and it's an adaptation of some of his songs into comics stories. For completists only, really. The wordplay alone is worth it for those hardcore fans, though, among whom I certainly number.

Writing For Comics came out the same time, and it collects a 4-part essay he'd written in the mid-80s, with a new essay appraising the work after a 15-year span. I read it tonight and the new essay is particularly inspiring. It really gave me a lot to think about, and really asks the important questions anyone in any creative field should think about. He writes about the dangers of stagnation and complacency in your work, actually rails against the establishment of a recognizable style because they become traps. Fascinating.

And just last night I got my hands on the 5th collection of his Swamp Thing run, Earth to Earth, which had moments where I had to put the book down and silently enjoy what I'd just read because I wanted to stand up and cheer. It reminded me of when I first read V For Vendetta. I wait with bated breath for the 6th, and last, collection, but it's due at the end of July yet.

So I'm going through the motions of falling in love with my favorite writer all over again, which I think should happen every now and then. It's healthy. It makes you happy to be alive, if only to read such great works.

Still to come this summer are a new, American edition of his one and only novel, Voice of the Fire; a re-imagining of one of his seminal indie 80s works, The Mirror of Love; the second collection of his Supreme run; a collection of his various DC stories; another book celebrating his career, boasting a new interview and some other rare short works; and the coup de gras: a handsome new edition of the original League of Extraordinary Gentlemen mini-series, just in time for the sure-to-disappoint summer blockbuster.

Oh, and Stardust was wonderful. Not as epic as I expected it to be, but that's not a complaint, just an observation. Brought a tear to my eye at the end. Probably my favorite of his prose works post-Sandman so far. Or have I mentioned this before? I'm starting to forget things...

Thursday, June 12, 2003

Last Sunday, on the ride home from my uncle's birthday, I conceived a plot. A story idea formed in my head, and it was good enough to me that it made me happy. This should happen now and then, if one fancies oneself a storyteller, but for the life of me I couldn't remember the last time. It has no ending, and it's difficult to come up with one that isn't either a) cliché or b) predictable, so it's a challenge. But one I welcome wholeheartedly. The challenge should be part of the fun. You have to one-up yourself, come up with an idea that will surprise you and delight you.

And just tonight, I got another story idea, though it's actually less of an idea, more of an ending, to be honest. So it kind of complements my Sunday idea. I got a book on Film Noir because I wanted to research on the subject; one of my dream films is a noir, but with a few tricks up its sleeve. I've had notes on this project since freshman college, but flipping through the book I came up with a better, more fitting ending than the one I already had. But I still like that original ending, it's just less potent in the previous context. So I've to come up with a new one for it since I like it so much. So it actually splits my project into two noirs now. Cool, no?

Anyway, what I'm getting at is the sheer elation and joy that comes with stumbling upon an idea. After getting the idea in the car, the whole rest of the ride home I had a stupid grin on my face, and I texted Neva immediately, I was so excited. You feel like laughing out loud, like a child. Your senses become hyper-acute for a few minutes. You're not aware of the stupid grin on your face. Your eyes will twinkle with possibilities and your head will spin with choices and directions. It is the best high, better than anything I can imagine any psychedelic drug's effects to be. The creation of something from nothing.

It can cheer me up for days. Most of the time I'm gloomy.

It reminds me of something Steven Soderbergh said. It was an interview after he'd won his Oscars for Traffic. He was on a hot streak, what with Out of Sight, The Limey, Erin Brockovich, and Traffic. His next project was Ocean's Eleven, to be followed immediately by Full Frontal and Solaris. Talking about the awards and accolades he'd received for his work, Soderbergh said "I'd give it all up for a dash of inspiration." And when you have those ideas, you'll completely understand that sentence. And if you've already had those moments of ideas, and you still don't understand what he said, then you probably never will.

Mind you, I'm not saying these two ideas I've had recently are great to anybody other than me. They made me happy, giddy like a schoolboy; that's enough. I really hope I live to be forty. Hopefully by then I'll have gotten these three ideas out of my system.

I really need to organize these story ideas, though. I've lost dozens of them to the ether out of sheer laziness. I didn't jot them down. Never trust your memory to do what it should, because when it doesn't, you won't even know about it. I hope one day that these Lost Ideas return to me, though, more mature, better, stronger from their time in Ideaspace.

Hm. This turned out to be longer than I thought. What I was getting at was that I haven't felt very creative in a long, long time. And I'm quite happy that the Sunday idea is not the kind of thing I usually come up with. So there.

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Sunday, June 08, 2003

“It’s my belief that history is a wheel.
‘Inconstancy is my very essence,’ says the wheel.
‘Rise up on my spokes if you like,
but don’t complain when you’re cast back down into the depths.
Good times pass away, but then so do the bad.
Mutability is our tragedy, but it’s also our hope.
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Wise words from a street philosopher.

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I finished yesterday what I hope to be the final draft of my third of First Time, actually missing Keka Shoot Day 3 in the process. Shooting is slated to begin on the 16th, though casting hasn’t been locked yet. So things are moving on that front. More when I know more.

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Another thing I realized about Reloaded: I really, REALLY miss the gunfights. The last great arc had guns blazing, and Reloaded was mostly martial arts, and slow martial arts at that. And I never thought I’d say this, but the fight sequences are too long. They don’t end on a proper note, because usually the climax had already been reached a few minutes ago.

But enough about that.

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There’s obviously lots of things to catch up on, but I wanted to say that I’ve been enjoying DJ Shadow’s work recently. I’ve been a fan since UNKLE, of which he’s one half (the other being James Lavelle). There was a considerable gap between Endtroducing… and The Private Press, his latest album, and the first single sported a video directed by Wong Kar Wai. About a week ago I was driving home and listening to a great song, I don’t remember the name but it’s the ninth track on Pre-Emptive Strike. When I got home, the song wasn’t done yet, so I just sat in the car with the lights off and waited for the song to finish. It was that good. And when was the last time you ever did that?

More recently, though, I’ve been listening to Weezer’s Blue album, their first. It’s one of the most perfect albums ever made, in my opinion, one of those rare times that every single track is great, like Pearl Jam’s Ten or Elliott Smith’s X/O and Either/Or, or REM’s Automatic For The People, or Smashing Pumpkins’ Siamese Dream (yes, I like Silverfuck). I hadn’t heard it in several years, and Neva’d never heard it, so I borrowed it from Chris and when I played it in the car, I was glad to see that I still had most of the lyrics memorized. Even though I hadn’t heard most of these songs in a while, they had such an effect on me when they first came out that they’d basically emblazoned themselves into the neurons of my memory, and it was like an old friend coming by for a visit: you haven’t seen them in some time but everything’s familiar: how they move and speak, gestures and looks, scents and figures of speech. I hope it didn’t bother Neva too much that I was singing almost every track. But on the way home, alone, it was worse. I was actually singing my heart out on “Say It Ain’t So,” at full blast, to the point that I was a little exhausted when I got home. And “Only In Dreams” can still bring a tear to my eye.

I really wish I knew how to play some instrument.

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Thursday, May 29, 2003

Checking Neil Gaiman’s blog, I found some cool links: Oh, Mikey!, a show in Japan about Americans living in Japan, except the family’s… well, mannequins. And surely Mich will get a kick out of this: the Hello Kitty vibrator. More weird stuff at Jlist.

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Had a great time the other night with Neva, Quark, Chris, and Mich. Mich gave us this weird Chinese boardgame called “Flight” and we had to play to get the rules down. At first we were just playing lifelessly, but then the concept of killing other players surfaced, and suddenly things got really interesting and lively. Quark and I stopped our discussion of Michael Winterbottom’s 24 Hour Party People to join in decimating either Chris or Mich. Neva and I were, of course, a team, and we surprised ourselves by winning, when at the beginning we were the slowest to get ahead. But then people started killing each other and we squeaked by with the least number of casualties. Interestingly, the pieces are airplanes and the goal is to get them all to one airport (there are 4 pieces per player). But they can be “killed” when another plane lands in the same spot, and in this post-9/11 world, I guess that has to strike you as just a little bit wrong. We also had to bend one rule because if we didn’t it would take forever to finish.

Anyway, I had such a great time because when’s the last time you played a board game with friends? I was flashing back to the Great Brownout Year, when I would be at Mike Jalbuena’s house and we’d play all sorts of board games with his sisters. They have a great board game collection, but we never played with the obvious games. No Cluedo, no Monopoly. Sometimes we’d play Sorry and Life, but mostly it was Elixir, this great game where you’re competing wizards racing to accomplish spells and obliterate one another. Sometimes it was Taboo, or Charades. Once in a while it would be Trivial Pursuit. There were others, too, but I just don’t remember their names anymore. I wonder where my Operation went?

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Also had (for the most part) a great time at Alexis’s house last week. That’s my ideal Friday night gimmick, these days: hanging out with friends at a house or other non-public place. Friday night traffic and parking drives me up the wall, so more often than not Neva and I just get together and watch a movie at home. It was nice seeing Ozzy again, who shared his sordid swinging stories. And Ernan, still a gaggle of arms and legs. And others, who shared their stories, knocked back their beers, told some dirty jokes. We watched some shorts, listened to some music, made fun of people who weren’t there.

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Keka Shoot Day 1 was a blast. A good day with a lot done, I thought. With a much better vibe and general demeanor than I had seen on the set of Gamitan. Which is a good thing. I hope it continues on until the release date. But I’ll write the rest about the day somewhere else. I don’t want to jinx anything but I’m really excited for it.

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Everyone watch 24 Hour Party People. It’s great. The best film about music since Almost Famous. Saw The Anniversary Party also, which was good. Better than I had expected, though it does have a couple of flaws. Phoebe Cates is still a good actress, and still so damn pretty. It’s a shame she’s not acting as much as before. There’s also a scene with Kevin Kline and his actual daughter that I just loved to bits, and is the most joyous cinematic scene I’ve seen in a long time, possibly since Amelie. It’s got that “joy of cinema” feel that Truffaut infused his films with.

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Tuesday, May 27, 2003

Recently got to read this essay by another of my favorite writers, Ed Brubaker, where he recounts the tale of how he met his idol, Charles Schulz. It's a sweet little thing, with some interesting facts about Schulz. Like his daughter was an Olympic skater, and he built an ice rink for her when she was a girl, and he used to have breakfast there every day and anyone could just go up and meet him. Whatta guy. Oh, and he drives a Jag with the license plate Woodstock 1.

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You'd think that, the way music video channels rely on VJs, they'd at least give them some kind of public send-off. But no, they just quietly and suddenly disappear, and they leave no trace of themselves behind, and no one ever mentions them again: it's as if they never existed. Remember when MTV was brand new in Asia? They had the best VJs then: Nonie, Sophiya, Danny McGill, etc. Where'd they all go? I know Nonie's now married to one of the richest men in Asia, Sophiya's an actress/musician in her home country, and Danny McGill married Kamal, who now hosts some extreme sports show on AXN. Nadya Hutagalung is also married to one of the richest men in Asia, after a failed stint as an MTV US VJ (which is where Sara Meier's disappeared to; good luck to her, she'll need it). Who gives a damn where Mike and sister Kerri Kasem went (probably back to dad Casey in the US)? David Wu probably went back to his acting career. Sarah, you never mattered anyway. G? Gone. And nothing anyone says is going to change my opinion that Jamie Aditya was always a talentless boob who couldn't deliver a joke to save his family's life. Rahul Khanna went back to being an actor (and is doing well, it looks like; his Bollywood Hollywood actually reached our shores). Sonia Couling, who was the last great MTVCrush (following Nonie and Nadya), has gone back to hosting variety and game shows, if I remember correctly. Shannen Torres; blink and you missed her. Belinda may be on her way out too, since I never seem to see her anymore. And I think Asha's been let go by Channel V because I never see her anymore: it's always either Paula (who I like) or Amanda Griffin, who I never used to see except if I happened to be up really early in the morning.

So why are they so unceremoniously dumped? Obviously, there are all sorts of possible factors: personal, maybe the person's lost his/her buzz, maybe the person never had any, maybe the person was giving management a hard time with an attitude problem or prima donna-style primping, maybe the person had skeletons rattling in their closet that started making too public a ruckus, etc. The real reason is probably very simple: the channel doesn't want you to think about and maybe realize that your liking the channel has anything to do with the VJs. So they're seen as expendable, replaceable at the drop of a hat or a whim.

I'm curious now about whether or not Donita will continue on with MTV past her marriage. And good luck to the VJ Hunt winners: unfortunately, most VJs really go on to nothing more lucrative, career-wise. Even in the US (uh, Kennedy? Pauly Shore? Anybody?).

And may I just say that I love the fact that complete unknowns won the recent MTV VJ Hunt. Mostly because it's a slap in the face to the "famous" people who thought they had it in the bag. You know who I'm talking about. Now it further confirms the sad, pathetic state of their careers. And the girl, Patti, is a Comm student at Ateneo. Which Sara Meier was before her "rise" to fame. She was in my block, apparently, but I never met her. She left before freshman year was over.

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FLY, SUMO, FLY!



You can't not love this picture.

And more Red Meat is good for the body:

Thursday, May 22, 2003

And sometimes, people can be just magically great. Got this tonight in my email:

hello, and thank you -- what a nice note. really glad you enjoyed the book.
cheers, and best wishes,
susan orlean

Which made my month. Along with finishing the script (now in its final drafting stages). It was also a cute coincidence, since I mentioned her in the post I'd written below.

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Last thoughts on The Matrix Reloaded:

I think I may have the answer. I think that the real reason most people are disappointed with Reloaded, whether most of these people realize it or not, is because unlike the first Matrix, which was unashamedly escapist fun and concerned itself with just posing and looking Fucking Cool, Reloaded pretends to be About Something. It tries to be important; have meaning. You feel it from the very beginning: why does everything smack of Star Wars after that opening fight scene? The shots of ships docking, the crew disembarking, Zion's architecture, its citizens' garb, hell, Zion's even got a COUNCIL! And in pretending to be About Something, it tried too hard, and choked on its own ambition. Reloaded is the Wachowskis taking everything waaay too seriously, and being unable to convey that feeling to the audience in any clear, logical, and concise way.

And that's that.

Doesn't change the fact that everyone's going to be lining up for Revolutions, though.

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Yesterday was my mother's birthday, and she took the day off work, and we did pretty much everything she wanted to do, which was have lunch at Sonya's Garden in Tagaytay, and go to mass at the Church of San Agustin in Intramuros.

Neva and I gave her a cigarette case that comes with a lighter. Despite my disapproval of her vice, it doesn't look like she's going to quit anytime soon. At least she smokes much less than she used to. My dad used to smoke, but quit cold turkey one day and hasn't smoked a stick since, though he has the occasional cigar with his brothers. My mom quit cold turkey thrice-whenever she found out that she was pregnant-and then promptly resumed the day each of us kids was born.

Anyway, it took an hour to get to Tagaytay, surprisingly, and we got to Sonya's Garden, which is literally a compound devoted practically entirely to plants. There's a dirt road, and a quaint wooden fence, and a parking lot. As you go in, you notice lots of signs:

Arugula For Sale,
Sonya's Body and Massage Parlor,
Conservatory,
Country Store,
Private Garden Not Open To Public, (which is, I assume, why it's called the Private Garden)
and three that made me smile:
Do Not Provoke or Tease the Dogs;
Well-Behaved Kids Are Welcome: No Running, Shouting, and Kicking of Pebbles;
and Strictly No Picking of Flowers, Picking Up Pebbles, and Banging of Chimes.

Which means that it used to happen a lot, I guess. Legions of misbehaving children terrorizing the dogs while picking flowers, kicking pebbles, running screaming at the top of their lungs, and banging chimes.

The story goes that the restaurant is really more of a hobby: Sonya probably makes most of her money from selling plants. But people liked the food and kept eating there, and kept recommending it to their friends, and more and more people kept coming. There used to be three separate cottages where people could eat, each with its own bathroom (which has a stone tub and a balcony). Now there's a larger covered area where the guests eat (though the cottages are still there in case they're needed, or for more private functions), and it's split in two: the other half is a garden. Occasionally, mist is sprayed on the plants and if the wind's strong enough it floats to the patrons. The ambience is wonderful: very natural, relaxed, peaceful. Soft music plays from hidden speakers. I should know, ''cause I looked for 'em (they're in the kitchen). The menu never changes: the three times my mom's eaten here she had the exact same thing. If you don't like it, you can leave. You begin with a salad, and you can choose what you want in it. Then the main course is pasta, with two sauces: Sun-Dried Tomato or White Chicken, and again, you make it yourself: there were bowls of scampi, capers, mushrooms, cheese, nuts, anchovies, etc. Drinks were dalandan juice with mint leaves. Dessert was turon and sweet potatoes. It's PhP500 a head, plus a 10% service charge. If you show up without a reservation they won't accept you. And reservations are only by cellphone. They rarely serve dinner, but sometimes they're open up to 8 PM.

After the meal we walked around the garden, admiring the plants and flowers. Having recently read Susan Orlean's The Orchid Thief I tried really hard to appreciate the flora more than I normally would, but could only identify a group of plants: bromeliads. No specific species. I saw the dogs the signs mentioned, and some chickens running about. We also visited the other three cottages. I should've gone to the Conservatory, because Neva later told me that it was a butterfly conservatory. She'd read about Sonya's Garden in a magazine. Around the garden there are some shaded benches, and a cushioned seat or two, and about two full mattresses, where only the owner could sleep. It was so tempting, because the air's so clean and refreshing, and we were full from the meal, and the temperature was just about right (since it was colder than in Manila).

Our last stop was the Country Store, where they sold various sizes of ornate dreamcatchers; and an "oriental lazy boy," basically a wooden reclining chair from Vietnam; and assorted dried fruits, herbs, spices, lotions, shampoos, soaps, tchotchkes, gewgaws, etc. We got a bottle of their herbal salad dressing.

It rained after that, which ruined our plans of taking a swim, so we drove back to Manila. The mass at Intramuros was uneventful, except I had developed a horrible headache on the drive down and had a difficult time standing up and keeping my concentration. It didn't help that the priest was one of those guys who talked s o s l o w l y . The headache lasted all the way till I got home, had dinner, and took the miraculous Motrin-S.

It sucks having sinusitis.

Which, incidentally, I inherited from my mother.

Tuesday, May 20, 2003

A bit of a spoiler warning. If you haven’t seen Reloaded, don’t go further. Though I don’t think I gave any major plot points away, better safe than sorry.

Now, on to the message proper:

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You know what I don’t get?

Why were people expecting some kind of blisteringly good story from The Matrix Reloaded? Like that was what made the first great. What made the first great was the action, pure and simple. The effects, the bullet-time, etc. should be mentioned too, but they’ve become memorable, and the standard-bearer of films to come, and have been spoofed numerous times because of the way they were used to present what was the main attraction: the action. When people talk about The Matrix’s contribution to cinema and pop culture history, is anyone with a modicum of taste going to say, “Yeah, the acting in that film was really amazing”? Or “Such crackling dialogue, like a sci-fi David Mamet!”? Fuck no! It’s the action!

I’ve been getting these reactions from people, that they feel cheated or something by the story. I mean, we’re talking about a summer film here. Even if it is the most anticipated film since Episode 1, when was story The Matrix’s strong point?

The score was horrible. It was actually worse than Don Davis’s work in the first.

The dialogue is terrible, but it’s far, far better than in the first film. Neva and I watched it before Reloaded and it was amazing how some of them were able to keep a straight face during some scenes. There’s one part, for example, and I love this: Neo wakes up, right, and Morpheus IS IN HIS FUCKING BED! IN THE SHADOWS! AND BEHIND HIM! AS IN BETWEEN THE WALL AND NEO! WHAT’S UP WITH THAT?! Anyway, he uses the word “prophesized.” PROPHESIZED!!! And let’s not forget every single line that escaped the now-gone Tank’s mouth. Everything from “Mm! These are exciting times!” to whatever he said in that long sentence he mouthed off before finally shooting Cypher.

If you stop to think of it, the structure of Reloaded is actually simple: fight – monologue –fight – monologue – fight – monologue. And each monologue is a badly written, intentionally ambiguous/amorphous/confusing (take your pick) one. The Merovingian takes the cake for me personally because I FUCKING HATE his accent. The Architect was like the host from Masterpiece Theater: dry and boring, no menace (which would’ve been nice), and full of ten-dollar words you’d need a dictionary to decipher everything. He also used up all the clever Latin transitional phrases: vis a vis, apropos, ergo, etc.

If there is a valid reason for people to be disappointed with Reloaded, besides Keanu getting a butt shot while Carrie-Anne Moss doesn’t, it is because the fight scenes, so tantalizing in the trailers, could not possibly have met what we had in mind, what we wanted, what we demanded after four years of waiting. The CGI, in particular, was so obvious, it was distracting. The effects technicians still haven’t perfected human movement.

On the whole, though, I enjoyed myself. I loved the action scenes, even if the CGI sucked. That’s all I was really there for anyway. Story, dialogue, acting: call it window dressing. I was never expecting much in those departments anyway. The first is still better.

What scares me is that supposedly these guys want to do an adaptation of my beloved V For Vendetta for their next project.

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Anyone seen the teaser trailer of Underworld? It’s an unabashed Matrix rip-off with what looks like the plot of Blade, except it’s werewolves (I think) instead of vampires. But still, it’s Kate Beckinsale in tight leather. I’m so there.

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This week's crop of referrals came from searches for:

wasabi boys
aubrey miles megamall
transmetropolitan wallpaper
iraqi sexy pics
rachel roberts fuck
ateneo girls nude
copeland road prison
vanda porn video pics
concert yani metropolis
astral projection exercise
pictures of shower scenes in films

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People suck. The past week I’ve heard about crazy-ass parents; ungrateful bastard children, and on one of my mailing lists, someone’s girlfriend’s been kidnapped and the poor guy’s at the end of his rope. I don’t even want to try to imagine what that’s like.

Wednesday, May 14, 2003

Neva and I saw My Wife is a Gangster last night, and it was a riot. I thoroughly enjoyed myself on all levels. See it if you can, you’ll be laughing your arms off, as Ernan would say.

This pretty much sums up my feelings regarding Bush and Blair being nominated for a Nobel Peace Prize.

And Red Meat’s been a hit with me recently. Here’s the latest one.

And one of my former teachers has a blog. How… weird.

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There is a classic sketch from the much-missed Late Night with Conan O’Brien wherein Triumph the Insult Comic Dog harrasses a group of nerds camped out at a theater anticipating Episode 2 (if you haven’t seen it, download it from the net. Life is not complete until you have seen this. Get the one at the Bon Jovi concert too, while you’re at it.). In it, he encountered a geek unlike any other: Blackwolf the Dragonmaster, a man who fancies himself a wizard and speaks with a ridiculous accent, who went to the group of nerds seemingly only to harrass them as well (but Triumph beat him to it and made him the butt of many, many sweet jokes). I have actually come across his website, and it is glorious. Exactly how I imagined it to be. Besides cracking up, I was pleased to note that there is a forthcoming album from Triumph the Insult Comic Dog called Songs in the Key of Poop. I look forward to it. Speaking of Triumph, check out his official website sometime. It’s been updated a little, with links to his fansites (where you can get some video clips of his sketches and appearances) and these zingers:

On the MTV Awards fiasco (Eminem picked a fight with Moby and Triumph):
“By now everyone knows what happened on the video awards. I bear no anger toward Eminem, who, as I've said in the past, I have great admiration for, particularly his smooth white hair, which resembles a beagle's nutsack. I'm also glad to see him prove he can act. He played a white rap artist...quite a stretch. Maybe I can do a movie about a guy who licks his balls.”

On Kermit the Frog:
“I really admire you, as a star but also as an amphibian. You can hold your breath for a very long time... which helps when you have to go down on Miss Piggy."

On Ellen DeGeneres, new center square on Hollywood Squares (replacing Whoopi Goldberg):
"Hey Ellen DeGeneres, the new center square. What a huge comedown. I kid, she's not here permanently, she's rotating with Burt Reynolds and Alec Baldwin. Interesting... I thought you only rotated with chicks."

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

Blogger’s still fucking up. Everytime I check this site it gives me an old post. And for a long time now, using the www.mindfuel.blogspot.com gets me the April 16 post. And of course, since I’m not a paying user, I apparently can’t complain to them; just read a bunch of FAQs and hope for the best.

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You know your bookshelf’s too full when it starts hurting you. I was getting a bunch of graphic novels to lend somebody, but the sliding glass doors are really stuck now because the whole structure’s sagging under the weight. So my hands slipped, and now I have a cut on my left index finger from the glass. And I went to play bowling right after, so of course the wound wouldn’t stop bleeding. Whoop dee doo.

And man, if ever there was a reminder that I’m terribly out of shape, the bowling was it. First few frames and my arm was already starting to ache. At the end of the day the inside of my left thumb was sore, and my right ass cheek was hurting. When I woke up Tuesday morning, it was worse. I really need to exercise. But at least I got a 145 in my second game. :) Not bad for someone who hasn’t played in months.

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Saw Confessions of a Dangerous Mind for the 4th time; first in a theater. It’s still great. Was disappointed to see Pioneer Films, the distributor, cut three scenes that were sex-related so that they could get the rating lowered to an R13. They were very bad cuts that interrupted the flow of the film. Theater wasn’t full when I watched, but at least none of them walked out.

I enjoyed X2 a great deal. It’s certainly better than the first. They really benefited from the bigger budget, and I didn’t even notice the 133 minute running time. It was also great to see Wolverine in his murderous berserker rage. If you're an X-fan, though, you start seeing some gaping plot holes as you go along, but still, it was great. X3’s targeted at 2006 pa, so that’s going to be quite a wait to see the Dark Phoenix…

Also saw Bringing Down The House, which is completely and utterly predictable. These kinds of movies, I realize more and more, are just not made for me, and my appreciation and tolerance for them continues to decline. I didn’t laugh out loud once during the film, and I consider myself a Steve Martin fan, so that’s saying something. I chuckled a few times, but I can’t even give it the consolation-prize-comment of “It had its moments.”

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Also finally got around to adding a lot of new links: Jason & Tina, Clar, Paul S., Elbert & Gio, and Nicole Campos. I don’t personally know Nicole, but I love her blog and on the links she goes.

Saturday, May 10, 2003



People recently stumbled onto this blog while looking for:

“she broke her ankle” chinese girl (just unique enough to have me wondering)
little red headed girl pictures (I really hope this has something to do with my recent peanuts post, otherwise… brr..)
narciso website pictures
voltron comics drawings
pictures of couples fighting fairly (this has me curious)
goldie poblador (twice!)
and, lo and behold,
mindfuel

Sometimes what I do now is actually go on a search engine and look for these things myself, and try to figure out why this blog pops up as a result, and what other websites came up as results.

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It’s been a while since I’ve last blogged, and there are a couple of things I’ve yet to talk about. But right now, I just want to say that I finally got through this thing that took me MUCH longer than I thought it would, and am glad that the weight is off my shoulders. It’s the longest thing I’ve written since my thesis. Since Wednesday night I’ve only been sleeping 4-5 hours a day. Which doesn’t sound so bad if you’re used to it, but I’m no longer used to it. Since graduating my body’s become used to sleeping however long I want. There were periods in the past few days where I experienced hot flashes, dizziness, and just the exhaustion of staying up late and forcing yourself not to sleep until you accomplish certain things. I’d punish myself by not sleeping, and then a few hours later it’s like you can feel every muscle creaking. I ate chocolate, drank lots of mango juice and iced tea, a couple of pills of vitamin C, and pistachios.

If I told you what I was working on you’d feel what I just described sounds ridiculous. And I wouldn’t blame you. It sounds ridiculous to me. And, I’m sure, to the handful of you who DO know what I’m talking about. Suffice to say that the other night I was listing down various sexual positions and fantasies, and it occurred to me that what I was doing I could actually call work.

I don’t know why it took longer than I thought. I ran into some unexpected roadblocks, I guess. And took a hell of a time working some of them out. Sometimes I’d be stuck for an hour or two on the tiniest, dumbest thing, that I presume only I would ever care about, sometimes for something that I KNOW will be changed anyway. But I have to do it, because without it being behind me I can’t move forward. I wish I could explain this better, but right now I’m just glad I’ll finally be able to sleep for a day or two. Then on to the fine tuning.

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Got some cool comics the other Saturday at CCHQ, thanks to Free Comic Book Day. I think they’re the only store in the country that seriously participated in the event. Props to them, they’re the best comics store in the history of the country. Shop there sometime.

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Even though Richard Kadrey’s Nanotales have become monthly instead of weekly, he’s no less brilliant. The newest one is here, and it’s one of the best yet. I promise, read just a few sentences, and then you won’t be able to stop. One of the more light-hearted, yet no less thought-provoking, pieces.

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Oh, and, uh, Happy Mother’s Day, you lot. Chiko, if you’re reading, happy birthday! :)